At this point in my life i feel as though my life has not improve the way i wish it would. I feel like i have no one to really hold on to if am not holding on to myself, the one person i feel who cares a lot about me, can't really help me as much i wish he could. Am happy that he's there for me when he can be and i appreciate it a lot. Sometimes i feel like he's going to leave me, that's how am feeling at this moment.

I've been hurt so much that i believe it's going to break me a part. Maybe that's what my life is going to become a painful scaring scar that can never be removed. With all i have been through i feel like my young adult hood will be the most difficult to comp with. I so hate it when i over think the situations in my life, just causes me to become emotional.

I can feel the tears ready to run out of my eyes like a water fall.